I accepted a blogging challenge called #Trust30 in honor of the republishing of Ralph Waldo Emerson’s book Self-Reliance. Essentially over the next 30 days I will be given snippets of thoughts from which I must create something. In my case that something will be written works.
Today’s challenge is as follows:
I do not wish to expiate, but to live. My life is for itself and not for a spectacle. I much prefer that it should be of a lower strain, so it be genuine and equal, than that it should be glittering and unsteady. I wish it to be sound and sweet, and not to need diet and bleeding. – Ralph Waldo Emerson
Think about the type of person you’d NEVER want to be 5 years from now. Write out your own personal recipe to prevent this from happening and commit to following it. “Thought is the seed of action.”
(Author: Harley Schreiber)I don’t want to be a schmuck, a patsy, a doormat others use and take for granted. I don’t want to be the guy who finishes last because he thought ‘working as a team’ was a better way of doing it than ‘every person for his/herself’. I don’t want to be the person who dies alone, forgotten, and unloved. I don’t want to become an asshole, either.
To avoid this, I need to change everything and start anew. It might be too late for that. Habits are hardcoded now. Going through life feels like going through a dream I cannot control.
It is all bewildering to me. I cannot even properly chain together the events of my life that got me to this point let alone craft a hypothetical chain of events leading forward that will help me avoid this fate. Everything comes down to the decisions you make today, right now. We are defined not by ‘what we want to avoid’ or ‘who we think we will be’ but by who we are right now. Any change to that person starts with a change, right now.